Happy Halloween!

Happy Halloween, hope you have lots of fun and eat lots of sweets! ;)

My Little Lovelies

I wanted to share this poem I came across in a poetry competition. I would love to take credit for it but it isn't mine. I just thought it was lovely :)

Oh my little lovelies, how sweet you are right now, tucked up asleep and dreaming I do love you, and how! 

I don't mind the stains on the carpet, or my grubby walls, I love your little handprints and interrupted telephone calls.

 I'll kiss your little cheek I'll hold your little hand. I'll hug you very tight and tell a story every night, about fairies from a far away land. 

Mummy's very tired, Daddy's had a long day, the cat's lost his mind.
 But we wouldn't have it any other way.

 Brownies, cubs and dancing? Of course! you don't need to ask, but I'd like a little more notice when you have a homework task! 

Have you brushed your teeth and got your shoes on? What do you mean they're dirty?? Nah we're not THAT late for school.... It's only JUST gone 8.30...

 Ahhh...my darlings.... Away I must creep, But I have to be quite sneaky, because I need my sleep and although you're sweet, your floor is very creaky.

 Love, Mum.

Frankie's First steps!

After months of walking around holding onto the furniture Frankie finally took his first unaided steps yesterday!

He is just 4 days away from 15 months.

Once he did it once that was it, he was doing it all day long, proper showing off, here's a video of him -

Peace & Quiet...

Sometimes when the kids are running round and making loads of noise I wish for a few moments peace and quiet.

But,

Peace and quiet is boring!

Charlie & Olivia have gone to stay at their grandparents for the weekend. It's been around a year since the last time they went to stay there. Their grandparents live in another town and I am missing the kids soooooooooooo much. Louie is bored stiff, Frankie is too little to play the games he likes to play just yet. The house is just way too quiet. I am missing the hustle, bustle and noise way too much! Dare I even say I am missing the nagging! I feel bored and I'm counting down the hours to them coming home tomorrow.

Their cousin Mollie was having her birthday party yesterday, here's a couple of pictures of them before they left-

Before I Was A Mum...

Before I was a mum...

I cooked and ate hot meals. I wore unstained clothing, brushed my hair and teeth everyday, and had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a mum...

My house stayed clean for days after I cleaned it. I didn't worry if my plants were poisonous, and I never tripped over toys, colouring books, or piles of shoes.

Before I was a mum...

I had never been puked on, pooped on, drooled on, chewed on, peed on, or pinched by tiny fingers. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I always got a full night's sleep.

Before I was a mum...

I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests or give jabs. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.

Before I was a mum...
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put him down. I never so felt gloriously happy over a simple grin, and I never knew that I could love someone so much.

Before I was a mum...

I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside of my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby, and I didn't know that bond between mother and her child.

Before I was a mum...

I didn't know someone so small could make me feel so important. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, and the happiness of being a mum. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much...

Before I was a Mum.

Being A Mother At 4am

Yawn!

Being a mum at 4am is exhausting!

Frankie is struggling with 4 back teeth cutting through at the minute. This is disturbing his sleep big time!

He is rolling around and bursting into tears in his sleep. I am exhausted.

My husband deals with sleep deprivation so much better than I do.

 I think it must run in the men his side of the family cos his dad is exactly the same, always up early!

It may also help that hubby can drink copious amounts of coffee, I can't even stand the smell let alone drink the stuff.

I do however like a good cup of tea.

On little sleep I am a seriously grumpy bitch!

Please hurry up and cut through teeth, it's been weeks now and I need a good nights sleep!

Are You A Believer?

Last Night I had a reading done by a spiritualist medium.

It was quite spooky the amount of things that rang true to me.

Here's a couple of things that really struck home-

She told me somebody in the family had bad legs.

(My father in law is really suffering with his knee, he can't walk without being in pain and he's waiting for an operation on it).

She told me that she sees an angel baby girl around me.

(Many of my readers will know that we sadly lost Louie's twin, I always felt she was a girl).

She also said she saw herself give me flowers, and when she did I was holding something. Something that belonged to a loved one that has passed on. She saw a gold ring with 2 bands.

(My nan had a gold ring, it was 2 gold twisted bands with a rose on top. All through my childhood she told me the ring was mine and I was to take it off her finger when she died. I always told her I wouldn't do that and shortly before she died, she took it off and gave it me. I was 21 at the time and still living at my mums, where I had 4 siblings plus their friends coming in and out. The ring went missing from my bedroom. It's always bothered me and I would love to know where it is. I asked the medium if she saw anything more about the ring and she said "stop looking for it and you will find it". I really hope so).

She said I really felt sorry and heartbroken for a friend who had an angel baby.

(This is true, I was actually just catching up on a friends blog who's baby has sadly passed. I have been thinking about her all week and it's made me really sad).

She also kept saying that I'm OK and to stop worrying.

(My mum and auntie have both had breast cancer. I have always been worried I will get it too. This last week my mum has been having tests to see if her cancer is back and also having a lump that she found in her neck looked at. I have been worried about that and also worrying that I am so likely to get cancer myself. I think she is referring to this).

She also told me to stop worrying and keep that smile.

(I've been having problems with a tooth and have been wondering/worrying that I might need it removing. I think she could've been referring to this. Let's hope she's right).

She said she can see me having another little girl in the future. That a letter is on its way and I must stop worrying about money.

Are you a believer?